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I have had slow Speech and poor coordination since I was six months of age, so it has greatly impacted every facet of my life.

From an early age, I have always known that GOD was our Creator however, at that time not allowing Him to further work in my life. For after the medical seriousness of my condition had stabilized, my attitude was; "LORD you have done enough damage in my life, now I need to correct the problem".

Back in High School being asked the question, do you know Jesus Christ ???, My response was, "Yes, and we have a deal, I leave Him alone and He leaves me alone". You see pride is not necessary conditional on ones abilities. The one redeeming factor was that, I knew my gripe was with God. Looking back at the obstacles that I have gone through, it now seems unrealistic to imagine that the LORD was not always with me, every step of the way.

In 1993, I made a commitment and formally dedicated my life to Jesus Christ. Partly out of frustration, since my ways were no longer satisfying me anymore, and since I was beginning to find purpose in my life, through living for Jesus Christ. With the understanding that; God has begun a good work in me and he will be faithful to complete it, Philippians 1:6 and that John 3:3 is true, One must truly be born again.

It is still hard at times for me to believe that my physical impediments are not of God, were not God's plan for me, and were not put upon me by God, and that God is not hindering me with them from walking in divine health and wholeness. I am now allowing the Lord to work in my life, and have since experienced and continue to experience an inner peace, strength, and contentment.

Now I have a new understanding of the healing of the paraplegic.
When Jesus first said to the man "your sin's be forgiven you", later saying "get up and walk." For years I felt that when Jesus said "your sins are forgiven you" theses were just idle words. I now realize the importance of having a clean heart, and one's sins forgiven.

For years, even after I dedicated my life to Christ, I was deceived that, this was it, I would have to live with my condition. Either God was teaching me something, upset with me, or at the best just uncompassionate. I now know the truth, that God is love, 1^st John 4:8. and that we are blessed with every spiritual blessing in Christ, Ephesians 1:3. I now know that there is both physical and emotional healing in the Gospel, Jesus paid for it all on the cross. If Jesus did not pay for it on the cross, we are not about to get it by begging or pleading with God! Jesus is our all sufficient Savior. However we need to learn to take what is rightfully ours. As son's and daughter's of Christ we are heirs of God through Christ, Galatians 4:7. And if an heir, we then have a full inheritance Colossians 1:12. I now have a new hope, for hope deferred makes the heart grow sick, Proverbs 13:12.